Sometimes i feel so useless in my life that makes me wonder what is the purpose that keeps me alive. It's because that i don't have any benefit to earth. But i don't do anything bad too. Well... As far as i thought, anyway. But a month ago, one little and good thing happened and this gave me a some sort of relief.
So i was thinking about what can i do to get away from this thought. And i decided to plant something so with that i could be useful to earth. But i haven't planted anything entire my life that's why i was kind of postponing too. Useless and lazy... Very bad combination!
In Turkish traditions we have a day called 'Hıdırellez'. In that day basically, we celebrate spring, jump over a small bonfire, write or draw our wishes on a piece of paper, combine it with money and tie it to a rose plant with something red and we belive 'Hızır' will make our wishes come true. The last two things are very important. If you don't do that, 'Hızır' can't find your wish! So if you want to try one day, remember that. And if you wonder what is 'Hızır', well... People are saying lots of things about that but i prefer to belive that it is a natural phenomenon which symbolizes abundance of spring.
As we are a typical turkish family, we bought very beautiful 3 rose plants which have very big roses in each branch. I drew and wrote my wishes on a paper because i don't know which one Hızır more prefers. Anyways i tied it to my rose with 1 TL with red latch because i couldn't find a red rope. Theoretically, i've done what is necessary. Oh by the way, the money you tied it up with, after Hıdırellez, you need to keep it in your wallet a year if you want more of it. A little superstition won't hurt ya!
After Hıdırellez, we sticked to 3 roses. We are living in an apartment and we couldn't keep roses on our balcony because rose soils were full of ants! So while we were thinking what to with them, i ran across with watchman of our site who has interests about flowers and we talked about the roses.
He said he has just bought a house next to sea with the money he barely collected, he wanted to plant roses and he asked if he can take ours. So i let him to take a look at them, he said that he has never seen this kind of big and many roses on one plant and the place he was going to plant them is just very right for them. So he took the plants and he was very happy about it.
I know this story isn't a big deal but in some aspects it made me happy. It was like a chain reaction. I was wanting to plant something so i can convince myself that i am not such a useless person for earth. Then, the day Hıdırellez came, we bought roses, and we gave them to someone who is very willing to take. With that i made someone happy and so i am happy and did something for earth too. Both done!
So if you are feeling bad too, why don't you think about planting something? Worked for me. Who knows, who will be happy at the end of the day!
Beijinhos.
